In the Cold
Mark Coleman
The rain washes away
what remains of the child’s smile, and all that’s left behind is the man. Bent
over. Catching bits of the past in his pockets. Straightening up to meet the
woman whose eyes seek to console, but whose heart beats in time to another.
The kindred under
the neon “Jesus Saves’.” Standing in bread lines. Palming crumbs for the long
days ahead. Army coats soiled and muddied. Bedraggled strands of hair splitting
vision in two. Beards sloppily slapped on. Tin cups shaking blind dimes
together. The street musician rusting. The guitar begging. The chords lost.
An ambulance’s
lights going out as it turns the corner after cutting off a few cars. Leaning
in a doorway. Locking lips. Hand running through her locks. The perfume you can
taste. Her gloss glittering your lips on
contact. Walking past a park transformed and enchanted in the twilight. Swings
like phantom limbs reaching back to schoolyard romances. Innocence and that
chest pain that did not signal cardiac arrest.
A bed disheveled,
and losing corporeal form after prolonged bouts of lovemaking. Candied
pillowcases with an auburn wisp or two left behind to compete in magnificence
with the few rays of sunlight that manage to force their way through the
blinds. A bottle on the dresser losing its volume. A book laying open to a page
with a passage you had read to her. Underlined by passion.
Booths in the back
of restaurants where the waiters let you be. Flash bulbs at the scene when
flashed forward, but here only mood lighting. Excruciatingly slow Mondays in
the office with the calendar like a game of Tic-Tac-Toe. The X’s leading to the
O’s. The dance floor like a beached whale. Jonah finding a flute to pass the
three. Trying to paste back the shorn hair. More stubble on the cheek.
On the corner with a
tinny cricket in the branch drooped over the fence. The stop sign at the end of
the road far too red. Dripping on the sidewalk. Applying pressure to the wound.
Traffic lights too quick to change. Puddles too quick to reflect. A boot coming
down, and wiping away the wearied face with the same eyes as you. Heavy
hearted. Hands limped and dwarfing.
Loneliness turning
to a sob in the throat. Trouts thrown back, but unable to find the river. The
sundress clinging and changing colors. Whimsical kaleidoscoping. Whispering in
one another’s ears. Biting the lobes occasionally. An earring taken between the
teeth which playfully tug. Tip of the tongue sliding along the loop. Scent of
Chanel and her sex. The throbbing that synchronizes.
Lying there, staring
at the ceiling, fancying that you can see the sky beyond. Toes curled up under
the covers. Resting hand in hand. Pining for someone in your arms. A waltz with
delirium and the sister of a friend. Trembling lips that lack the courage to
consummate. Wanting nothing more than to kiss her.
Her absence knifing
at your heart. Ailing intermissions. Interrupted. Fracturing out. Broken
ashtrays. Mirrors hung as crooked on the walls as your dreams on the crescent
up there among the stars.
Kids out
hopscotching beneath parental umbrellas. Marbles and Hula-hoops. Saturn with
its rings grown wider and further apart. A doorbell forgetting its function.
The inhabitants unaware that someone stands in the shelter of the porch. The
boards all warped. Bowlegged and unwanted. Tie with a sloppy knot. Or maybe
just a clip-on. Pants with a wiped-out crease. Nothing much to look at. The
yawn excusing the arm around the shoulders. Mindful of the popcorn bucket.
Exhaustion in the
back seat. Fogged windows. Perspiration clinging to the brow. Parked up the
hill with the city spread out below. Lit up like a Christmas tree. The advent
chocolates half melted in the moonlight.
The weeping willows hiding feral cats, and pianos with missing teeth.
The heat waves streaking desert asphault in the morning. Compulsive daytrip.
Odds seeming good.
Socials forcing
adolescent backs up against the wall. Spiked punch bowls bleeding into soup
kitchens. Courageous girls grabbing a boy here and there. Whores in the
homeless bar drinking away their fathers. Winos in the library waiting for the
storm to pass. But the clouds keep gathering. Piling on top of one another. A
man taking a deep breath as his foot leaves the curb. The bus swerving, but not
missing.