Thursday, June 4, 2015

Summer Showers


Summer Showers
Mark Coleman

  They tore off her hijab as well as the rest of her clothes, threw her on the ground, and gang raped her. Each seemed as though assigned before hand to a specific orifice. Switching it up, so each man could enjoy another stolen pleasure.
  I watched on in disbelief. Women like these don't own rape whistles. They ignorantly think that nothing of the kind could ever happen to them. They believe that God will protect them. They are wrong.
  God still lives in the Old Testament. Wrathful. Murderous. Willing to commit filicide. Unrepentant. Lying under oath. All the stenographer has to do is type it all out, and throw New in front of the Word.
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  We made love with Serge Gainsbourg singing low in the background. The music of sex. The needle comes down. Finds the vein ready and willing. Concupiscent in fact. The barrel fills with blood, and the phonograph becomes sugary.
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  Listening to the hail do car damage and drinking margaritas. An all nude strip club. An all you can eat buffet with pubic hair in the food. A touch lap dance.
  Buying strippers cognac. Stumbling home drunk. Pissed. Pelted. The cloud formations look like cauliflower. The women all want diamonds mined for by children with missing hands.
  Looking very much like a luna moth in her green and blue getup. One of those nice girls for sure. You smell of sweaty, gyrated pussy and cigarette smoke.
  Your wallet empty. Tapped. Couldn't afford to buy another woman a drink, take her to a movie, dinner. Any of it.
  Some men use a clip with the large bills on top in a cock of the walk bid. You wished you had one of those now. Filled to the brim. Full of whiskey confidence, you decide to approach her, anyway.
  Soaked through, you stumble over and slur a few words at her rather than to her. Inquiring about her relationship status and so forth in the chopped bass growl that comes after a night like this.
   She doesn't answer any of this but to your surprise, she shares her umbrella with you. Both of you under that tortoiseshell, turquoise sky. Her hand accidentally brushes yours. You want to hold it more than anything in the world, right now.
  Sweet is the adjective that comes to mind. Not a girl throwing herself all over a stage, and nearly breaking what's left of her hymen with your limp dick, dildo, Jew nose.
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  Chalk art kids run over to the Van Gogh, and start dotting in their own stars. Throw rocks bigger than their hands up there. Taking away the rain.
  You notice that the underside of her umbrella is a simulated depiction of the heavens. It's what you'd expect to see lighted above a baby's crib or hanging in a museum. It seems to create a separate cosmos in every strand of her hair.
  It's dazzling. As stunning as any of the rest of this slim girl's natural radiance. You see that its just a light posse of fireflies. When you were a child, you used to catch them in mason jars, and watch them for hours on end.
  She walks. Looking straight ahead. Oblivious to all of this. It could be the Garden of Eden, and she wouldn't even notice the apple or the serpent proffering it.
  You're at peace with yourself for the first time in your life. All the atrocities being committed at this moment, the world over, couldn't take any of this away.
  The second hand has seized to tick. The minutes die away. The clock falls to pieces in the loss of its conception of time. It falls into the ocean of forgetfulness that steals loved ones locked away in nursing homes.
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  She speaks for the first time. "It looks like rain." You can't understand why she hasn't noticed what has essentially become a flash flood. You're walking through rivers. No garters. But no gators either.
  Noah could be waving mankind away, and this girl wouldn't notice. She would just keep up the clip clop stride or splash away until the whole of this macrocosm parted like the Red Sea.
  Then you see she means something completely different. What that is you haven't the slightest clue. She seems to know but her head is somewhere between a coma and the wall that divides the people.
  You begin to become conscious of what is going on here. This girl can't possibly have a boyfriend or a girlfriend for that matter.
  She is nothing but a child dressed up in a woman's body. Blissfully ignorant to the point of stupidity. It's almost a certainty that she is as virginal as a Madonna.
  She has yet to look at you. Has only spoken four words. It's doubtful she will speak anymore. Her greeting took the form of a gesture. A kind one but an unspoken one still.
  What she might be thinking is anyone's guess. But she must be thinking. Right? You begin to doubt even this. There's a nirvana like quality to her. Certainly, transient.
  You pass a man sleeping on a bus bench. Or are you in a park, now. The street has seemed to fallen into the same ocean as the clock. But instead of forgetting something intangible it has instead forgotten itself.
  You would like to offer the man money. But in the absence of that luxury at least a kind word. But it would seem an affront to her own kindness. Somehow.
  Besides, you're afraid this whole land that seems wholly nonexistent would complete its dissolution and she would dissolve with it.
  The man dissolves once out of sight. The deluged brown paper bagged bottle held tightly to his chest.
  A newspaper boat floats by. You read a headline that you instantly forget. You're sure it's war.
  It is not a painful process but a slow and arduous one. He can only ascertain that certain parts of himself have begun to costively dematerialize.
  You realize how attached you've become to this woman/girl/child in such a short amount of time. She's existed in a mercurial state within your heart, forever. Before you were born or even conceived, she was there swimming within you. A mermaid with precious gems for eyes.
  Thinking of mermaids you once again look at her hair. It flows as do these tributaries along this strange but wondrous path. It has a Medusa-like quality to it. Even in the absence of fireflies. It lives. It flames.
  But there is nothing there hungry for a mouse. There is probably nothing there hungry for you either. With this awakening, almost rebirth, you begin to take in the rest of her. In pieces.
  Starting with her face you work your way down until you reach her unseen/seen toes. There is certainly an almost timeless bond. But does this bond attach in any true sense?
  Is this all just a fantasy? A drunken delusion? Very unlike those delusions of the DT variety.
  You now do take her hand. Press it. She does not squeeze yours knowingly or in acknowledgement. She unmistakably exists. Her flesh is as soft and warm as you would imagine. To your astonishment she speaks again.
  "There is a place beyond this." Again, she does not elaborate but you somehow know that she is not speaking of an afterlife.
  Is the place even a place? Does the path that you are traversing lead there? You doubt and do not doubt this, simultaneously.
  You had begun to think you were walking her home. Now, you know that this is not the case. She is walking you. There is a reason she lent you shelter beneath this umbrella.
  Perhaps, someone or some force outside of herself had commanded this of her. You rationalize that this place must be an idea. Either hers or yours. You could have not foreseen its actualization. Then you again think of the place as a place.
  There is such a confusion here. Nothing is logically sound. Nothing is as it seems. Ideas cannot be walked to with a beautiful woman who will not take your arm or even your hand.
  They are possessions that not even a prison guard or solitary confinement can take away. Are these new ideas? Sentient ideas? Revolutionary? Political? Romantic? Terrifying?
  Well, certainly not the latter. Why would such a resplendent guide lead you to them if such were the case? And besides, you are not terrified.
  You have never had feelings quite like these. They seem as new as the ideas may prove to be. Feelings of tenderness. Akin to love but not love. Well, maybe that's not quite true. What else could one label your feelings for her?
  Albeit, very rudimentary you do feel that flutter of the heart the poets speak of. Your breath catches in your throat. You try to swallow it and find you cannot.
  This could be the love of your life. The one you have been waiting for so patiently. Wanting to love. To have that exuberant feeling for yourself. Selfish, sure. And you know that love should be unselfish.
  Love should be able to be willing to die for someone else. Would you die for her? Someone that you don't even know. Well, you do seem to know her. After a brief moment of contemplation, you decide definitely that yes, you would.
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  In the morning, a friend stops by. He's brought by a bottle and was going to see if you were up. It's not morning exactly but just a little before noon. He knows that you wake up around nine, and usually need a drink.
  It's as much a kindness as an act of sociability. He'll have one too, sure. But he doesn't need one. Especially, so early in the day when the sun, though it should be wide awake, is still dragging its feet into day.
  He knocks on your door repeatedly, knowing you should be home. He calls your phone. Tries your door. Your door is unlocked. He finds you in bed. Smiling in your sleep.
  He's never seen you smile like this. Never seen anyone smile like this before. Never seen anyone sleep like this before in fact. It dawns on him to check your pulse.
  The paramedics pronounce you DOA. After the coroner's inquest, it is revealed that you died in your sleep. Reasons unknown.

Monday, June 1, 2015

Apocalyptic Sex

Apocalyptic Sex
Mark Coleman

  The lowboy starts to walk towards you on its wobbly, stupid legs. Vomiting out its idiotic contents. Knickknacks that could be civil war relics hitting you in the face. Giving you black eyes and a fat lip.
  She takes off one article of clothing at a time. Making a real sexy show with the stockings. Rolling them down to her ankles in a way that could make a man have a heart attack.
  After taking them off, she throws them to you. As though they were souvenirs. Say a band's set list.
  A gray haired Tommy Atkins who survived the war without a scratch sits in his bedroom frantically making zip guns because his gun safe just took issue with him. Bringing out the heavy artillery and blowing holes in the walls.
   She doesn't so much lick her lips as run her tongue over them as though trying to get rid of some imperfection that occurred in the application of her lipstick. Maybe, the bathroom mirror hadn't been cleaned in a while. Or maybe it was just haste.
  A little girl's lunchbox tries to eat her as she's walking to school. A woman's bed jacket rises, and comes at her waving its arms and screaming. Or, maybe, just making spooky ghost sounds.
  She walks, or more accurately struts/saunters, to where you sit on the bed naked. Though, you're hard as a rock, you hope your eagerness doesn't show in your eyes.
  A teenage boy's boutineer shoots out of his tux's buttonhole and kills the prom queen just as they're crowning her.
  A bouquet of flowers clutched tightly to her chest. Now another flower embedded in her skull. Bleeding profusely.
  She looks like Botticelli's Venus. Except she's not trying to cover anything with her hair. It flows over her breasts out of its own volition. You always did like women with long hair. Even if it does tend to cover their other charms.
  A German heart-faced teen darling is doing battle with an army of dirndls. Bolos come flying like geese out of the jewels of the Earth. Sending the villagers running with their children clutched to them. Weeping on their breasts.
  As she comes over to you you think, Jesus, what an angel. And here with you for some reason. Her red bra and panties on your floor. Her dress a crumpled mass near the bedroom door.
  A car full of hooligans are playing mailbox baseball. One mailbox isn't having any of it, jumps into the car with them, and starts ripping out their throats. A boy scout watches an old lady cross the road, get hit by a car, and shrugs.
  As she comes nearer to you, it's as though she's begun to walk on eggshells. Suddenly shy, apprehensive, having second thoughts? Christ, you hope it's not the latter. These sorts of encounters are becoming exceedingly more rare.
  A Catholic's rosary coils around her neck and strangles her. An Orthodox Jew's tefillin turns anti-Semitic, and with the help of his tallit, drives his head into a brick wall. Killing him instantly.
  Your doubts seem to have been unfounded. She doesn't full on kiss you. Just brush your lips with her's then lifts her leg, foot on the bed, giving you a view of her pouting sex.
  Inviting you to kiss her there. You do so. Not so much with gusto but just a peck. The more passionate kissing will come later.
  A homeless junkie overdoses. He had a good heart but no comes to his funeral. Not even his own mother. No one mourns or even cares.
  She bats her long mascaraed eyelashes. Seems suddenly to be the coquette. You'd take her for a good girl. Full of innocence.
  Perhaps, waiting for marriage or the right man to fuck. Make love to? You can't make out any of this.
  A girl stands on the side of the road with a sign that reads, "Travillin Hungry Full of Love." No one gives her a dime. So, she leaves the sign on the sidewalk and walks away.
  This off and on thing is kind of strange. Yet undeniably sexy. She leans down and embraces you as though you were the only man in the world. The transition from slut to prude continues. Either way, you'll soon possess her.
  A child is molested by his stepfather. He grows up depressed and suicidal. He sees therapists but they can do nothing for him. He sleeps around with men. Giving them blowjobs in their cars for money to support a crack habit.
  She takes you in her mouth for about a minute or so then slowly climbs on top of you. After a bit of this you go down on her. Your hands firmly grasping her buttocks. Then she's back guiding you into her.
  This time you're on top. You massage her breasts. You kiss her repeatedly. She returns your kisses. Thrusting her tongue into your mouth.
  A vet keeps calling the hotline. Not the sex kind. He's on hold for such a long time that he gets his army issue and does what the war failed to do.
  Despite the fact that you have blue balls, you don't come for awhile. She moans like it's the best she's ever had. You want to roll your eyes or stick out your tongue. Could always just flip her the bird.
  An old man's cancer is causing him so much pain that he shoots himself in the head. Another just decides that he has nothing to live for, and after getting off work from the job he always hated, comes home and does the same.
  You finally do come. You wonder if she can feel it filling her. You're sure she can. This is what the whole act is about.
  In the end, you always feel empty or disappointed that it's over. Like a good book or movie. But, of course, it can't go on forever.
  She might sleep with you till morning. She might not. You might have breakfast or brunch. Then you will part ways and you will never see this girl again.
  His wife hears the gunshot. Comes running in. Finds him. His head lying on the table in a pool of his own blood. She becomes hysterical and starts screaming. The children cry. Not understanding. Just knowing their mother is upset. But that's just the way it goes. Life can't be all orgasms.